Symptoms 3/13

I feel like I'm gonna die. The girls are doing pretty well though. Our neighbors came over today to play in the yard. Nico walked off with a six year old boy, and I came up behind them and overheard Nico asking Kurt, "What are you eating?" "Gum," and I swear I could see her thinking, "Gum--yes--from the book: 'Kids like gum.'" "I like nuts," she said. She loves boys; it's so cool to see. She also has conversations with Ethan from the group I host; he's almost four. Lena loved Kurt's sister Ani; she kept falling down and asking Ani for help. It was adorable.

But I keep feeling like I'm going to die; I'm freezing; my kidneys hurt. I've been taking belladonna so I didn't get a fever last night like I did four days after the first removal. But I'm depressed and pathetic and all I want is sugar. The closest thing I have to sugar are these Acerola vitamin Cs. And to get pregnant. What is up with me? I'm going to put on more socks and try to sleep.