Vaccinations
(or, My God, what have I done?!?!)

Oh jeez. I remember feeling weird when I had to sign my permission for the Hep B vaccination on day one in the hospital...but I was feeling weirder that I hadn't gotten my tiny babies to breastfeed, so I signed. Who would mandate something harmful for an infant? Surely not our government, right? Whle my girls are probably fine despite the toxins and screwed up DNA I let be injected into their tiny systems (on three separate occasions), I really wish I had done my research ahead of time. Actually, I guess Chris is to blame here too (love you, honey)--we don't vaccinate the dogs, except for the legally required rabies. That was researched!

So I'm suspending vaccinations until I've done more research. And I'm kicking myself for doing the chicken pox vax just before Christmas; the girls have pretty much been fussy for the past month since they got it. And have they had a cold since then--just a tad? Plus I shouldn't have done it while they were on antibiotics. God. Should I report that to VAERS (the cold symptoms)? I feel like I should be proactive about this, but I don't want to overreact. I'm currently reading What Your Doctor May Not Tell You About Your Child's Vaccinations by Deborah Mitchell and Stephanie Cave (at least one of whom is a practicing pediatrician--she even lists when to give the vaccines if you do do them). It seems calm and well-researched, but it talks a lot about autism, and to think that autism is preventable just breaks my heart! I mean, look at that face at the top of this post. What if I let a needle be put into her (which is honestly enough reason for me to delay vaxxing right now--the looks they gave me last time...) and she, as I know her now, disappeared?


Well, I have to thank the fine people at mothering.com for their Vaccination Forum. I really thought people who didn't vax were kinda selfish--just living off the sacrifices the "rest of us" made, if you know what I mean. How did an idea like that even get into my head? Really, who put it there? (Blue Cross Blue Shield wants it there; I got a mailing today about how "all children need to be vaccinated." It also came with a satisfaction survey; I will complete it, telling them why I am dissatisfied with their Well Baby program. It also has tips for when you wean--who says you have to wean?) I'm reading the Vaccine Guide next. I will keep you informed! (And by "you," I mean my little Lena and Nico of the future!)